i feel the best way to express oneself is by writing,in today's age of pcs, laptops and their keyboards,i dont have enuf patience to sit with a pen and paper and write,so blog is the best option.
as for the title of my blog. MRS.SENGUPTA, i used to be MOUPALI ROY a very pampered daughter,a loving sister and an individual who was carefree about the rest of the world,so much loved, cared and sheltered. but thanks to my parents who also introduced me to many realities of life and taught me a very important thing, ADJUSTMENT with which i am living a decent life with my husband and child. but with everything in its place, a good home, a very good husband a sweet son, i have lost my identity.moupali s lost somewhere,i am now MRS ARNAB SENGUPTA a wife and a mother. sometimes i feel where am i heading to?? no doubt this is a phase of life and i believe that every phase has its own priorities, and at this phase my priority is to raise ambarish and see arnab is comfortable. i might sound very selfish if i say WHAT ABOUT ME?? but am i not right??
when i had developed complications during the 8th month of my pregnancy, i was admitted to the hospital,the anaesthesiologist came to examine me and asked me if i was working i said 'no' she said i shud start working as soon as my son grows up as at teh end nothing will be left for myself,i forgot her words that time as i was going through a tough time then as my baby was not ready to get delivered,they had to charge steroid and was operated even before the completion of 36 weeks of pregnancy which they say is quite dangerous. that whole night i prayed to God that if something happens to my baby i too shud die in the OT itself as i wont be able to take it.then by the grace of God, i delivered a healthy baby a little underweight(2.45 kgs) but he was fine. my body also responded well to the post operative drugs and things were OK. Arnab nicknamed him Stuart as he reminded him of the famous animated charecter Stuart Little. till date he is the the most precious gift i ve got from God and i think even God cant give me a nicer gift than Stuart my cutie pie.
this is the problem with me when i write i always divert, parhaps my present phase is responsible as i told earlier i myself have lost somewhere and a wife and a mother has taken the place.this is also needed, every human is born with a cause a job to perform,this is my job now.
